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home again! like it was all a dream. a very beautiful, delicious, fascinating dream... and like my responsibilities back here were terrible, frustrating nightmares.
i started using dw in the first place in part because i've never had a diary (or a blog. pete wentz would say it counts) and in other part to keep personal updates on the wiki. i'll be the first to say there isn't exactly an overabundance of things to give updates ON. i knew this would happen; that i would lose focus and it would all fall out of my hands the second i wasn't keeping pressure on it. but it still doesn't feel great. i want to be able to finish projects and dedicate myself to something! maybe i'll manage to get some stuff done. maybe not.
the to-do list from last post still stands, perhaps a little bit more urgently. add to that deciding what actually goes on each page and then consider giving up entirely.
speaking of things you have to spend a lot of time doing and agree with platonically but struggle with actually completing... i need to look for another job. for real this time. hot topic has to answer my emails eventually :) ! i fucking hate everything about it, but i also hate not being able to add to my merch collection and i spend most work days in an unconscious haze anyway. thank you capitalist america and thank you current merch market. by which i, of course, mean fuck you to both.
i haven't been doing so great recently. probably that vacation bubble popping or something. but i want to be doing bad with a PURPOSE, instead of being as useless as ever. drifting is fun until you actually want to hold on to something, yeah? i think i might just be a coward.
i started using dw in the first place in part because i've never had a diary (or a blog. pete wentz would say it counts) and in other part to keep personal updates on the wiki. i'll be the first to say there isn't exactly an overabundance of things to give updates ON. i knew this would happen; that i would lose focus and it would all fall out of my hands the second i wasn't keeping pressure on it. but it still doesn't feel great. i want to be able to finish projects and dedicate myself to something! maybe i'll manage to get some stuff done. maybe not.
the to-do list from last post still stands, perhaps a little bit more urgently. add to that deciding what actually goes on each page and then consider giving up entirely.
speaking of things you have to spend a lot of time doing and agree with platonically but struggle with actually completing... i need to look for another job. for real this time. hot topic has to answer my emails eventually :) ! i fucking hate everything about it, but i also hate not being able to add to my merch collection and i spend most work days in an unconscious haze anyway. thank you capitalist america and thank you current merch market. by which i, of course, mean fuck you to both.
i haven't been doing so great recently. probably that vacation bubble popping or something. but i want to be doing bad with a PURPOSE, instead of being as useless as ever. drifting is fun until you actually want to hold on to something, yeah? i think i might just be a coward.
